Never enough time
There just isn't enough time in the day to do everything I want to. I have my schedule jam packed with Classes, AIESEC, RAing, and now my research Assistant Position, and yet I still have this overwhelming desire to be more involved. I wish I had time to be a part of more activities and more clubs on campus, but it just isn't possible. I have no idea why I want to do everything when I know it's not physically possible, but I still hate that sinking feeling that I might be missing out on great experiences and opportunities.
My research position seems like it is going to tie in directly with what I'm studying--which makes sense, considering its part of PAM. My one fear taking this job seems to have become reality: the flexible schedule and creating my own hours has made it more difficult to get it done. I realized that I can't just up and go to the library when I want to work, because I end up having to lug my whole computer there and my laptop is one chunky piece of technology. Plus, I've found that its hard to focus on it for more than an hour at a time, just because my brain needs a break from the monotonous searching of the CU library system. I'm sure I'll figure out something that works and it is nice to be able to make my own hours...
I really am fortunate that these types of jobs literally fall into my lap. Come to think of it, I'm just plain fortunate. I know I bitch and I complain about being overwhelmed and being broke and all the other crap in my life but in reality I'm so much better off than most people. I seem to forget that while I'm at Cornell because here I'm surrounded by so many amazing people doing amazing things. Sure, I'll be up to my neck in loans when I graduate, but I'll have a Cornell Degree in hand and a ton of invaluable experiences under my belt. I need to work on reminding myself of this so that I stop freaking out.
This week is going to be hell right here at Cornell. I have a prelim in my hardest class Wednesday and then 2 more prelims Thursday PLUS a paper due. This ought to be fun...I just can't wait until Thursday at 4:10 when my Fall Break is officially starting and that means bye bye sobriety and hello fun.
My research position seems like it is going to tie in directly with what I'm studying--which makes sense, considering its part of PAM. My one fear taking this job seems to have become reality: the flexible schedule and creating my own hours has made it more difficult to get it done. I realized that I can't just up and go to the library when I want to work, because I end up having to lug my whole computer there and my laptop is one chunky piece of technology. Plus, I've found that its hard to focus on it for more than an hour at a time, just because my brain needs a break from the monotonous searching of the CU library system. I'm sure I'll figure out something that works and it is nice to be able to make my own hours...
I really am fortunate that these types of jobs literally fall into my lap. Come to think of it, I'm just plain fortunate. I know I bitch and I complain about being overwhelmed and being broke and all the other crap in my life but in reality I'm so much better off than most people. I seem to forget that while I'm at Cornell because here I'm surrounded by so many amazing people doing amazing things. Sure, I'll be up to my neck in loans when I graduate, but I'll have a Cornell Degree in hand and a ton of invaluable experiences under my belt. I need to work on reminding myself of this so that I stop freaking out.
This week is going to be hell right here at Cornell. I have a prelim in my hardest class Wednesday and then 2 more prelims Thursday PLUS a paper due. This ought to be fun...I just can't wait until Thursday at 4:10 when my Fall Break is officially starting and that means bye bye sobriety and hello fun.
- The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four Americans is suffering from some form of mental illness. Think of your three best friends. If they're okay, then it's you. ~Rita Mae Brown
posted by Lindsey at
10:54 PM
1 Comments:
relax and don't forget Mr. Pollay's positive triggers. You will be fine, I know you will figure out a balance that allows you to thrive. Right now you are reaching for the stars, while standing on a stool. If you reach too far, you will fall and this is a difficult position to hold for a long time. No importa, it's a cool position to be in...reach for the stars as the A-Teens say!!!
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10/03/2006 8:29 PM
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